Why did she pick me? I'll never know...

I still wonder that to this day. Why did this return missionary young woman who is beautiful, righteous and amazing in every way want to spend the eternities with me. Well, it turns out she wondered the same thing when she started having feelings for me. When we first came home from our missions we both had no interest in each other with respect to love. She needed a drummer to write songs with and perform with and I needed a place to store my drums while going to school. It turns out that our needs seemed to fit perfectly. Some of my mission companions used to ask me what was going to happen with Sis. Shields and I after the mission. I always told them jokingly, "Well, she needs me to play drums for her so we'll have a lot of alone time in the garage together. I'll probably kiss her and we'll just keep our relationship at that!" We got a good laugh about that but nothing more. After I came up to BYU for school we ended up spending quite a lot more time together then we had thought. She would show me around Provo, help me with girl advice and I would do my laundry at her house (she lived with her parents at the time). I then began to be truly interested in her and, while it took a whole lot more convincing to get her on the same page, she eventually realized that she had feelings for me also. She had been held back all along for a few reasons: first, she wasn't ready to date yet after the mission, second, she just needed a friend at the time and third, she couldn't see any depth to my personality. The third one surprised me the most when she later told me (yep, she's brutally honest). She said that I didn't open up until we were already dating. I didn't realize any change but she could all of the sudden see my life goals, my testimony and my core beliefs due to experiences in my life. I subconsciously was holding these back because she was rejecting me left and right. She once broke down and said "Why can't you just bee a friend to me? Can't you just be the guy who has a hot friend of the opposite sex with out being interested in her?" I mean, she was really not into me at all. She said I became a new person when she finally decided to give a relationship a try. Now, because of this experience, I would like to give a word of advice to both guys and girls: Don't hold back who you really are for fear of rejection. In this case, it turned out that who I really was fit perfectly into who she wanted to be with. It doesn't always work out this way. Maybe, when you show who you really are, the girl or guy you are interested in will drop you right there, but that's ok. I promise you that you will not want to be with anyone who does not want to be with the real you.

She is so BEAUTIFUL!!!